Making sense of it all

I had one beautiful healthy baby on Friday the 13th of 2010. On Friday the 13th of 2012 one month shy of that healthy baby's birthday I found out I lost one. Words do not even begin to cover the feelings I have. Emotions are all that are there. Sadness. Anger. Annoyance. While on one side I understand God has a plan for our life and my plan may not be the same as His, on the other side you have to stop and wonder 'Why me?' I may never know the answer but I will continue on and grow. I have been blessed and know I will be blessed again.